Falling for Fall

Finally the time changed this past week up until then it seemed this fall, time is going so very fast. It seems that I can't keep up and the speed to which all this precious time is passing is leaving me behind. I don't know if it's from Halloween Overload, a crazy football schedule for Gavin, the Rolling Video Games Schedule or the fact that it hasn't really cooled off in good ol' Hobbs yet, but I hate the feeling of misused time, of feeling behind. I have tried over the last few days to regain control but I don't think I will really catch up until this weekend when I can actually sit down and knock some quality housework out of the way.

I have also had some recent developments at work that sure has my biological clock ticking away. They want to switch our 'sick time' and 'vacation time' that we accrue to 'PTO'. They are giving us an option to take our current accrued time out in a cash payment, or we can convert it to PTO, or you have something planned in the next year health wise like a surgery or something...you have up until 2014 to use it or lose it. Well, all this conversation about this at work led to me having to confess to my coworkers that I have been banking all this sick time for the last 6 years so I could maybe someday have a baby. Ugh. Now they all know. :o/ I have such a weird demanding time schedule for work that there is what I consider a 'perfect' time frame for me to have a baby. Which would be the end of Oct. through January....this would give me the peace of mind that I don't have any of my projects dumped on anyone else at work and I wouldn't have to worry about the quality of work the person it got dumped on not being up to my standard...essentially I could actually ENJOY my time.

Of course all this is complicated by the fact that uh....I ain't married and Dang Ol' Dave though he's been more and more open, hasn't popped the question. Honestly before I had learned all of this PTO business, I had talked to him about my thoughts on this time line, but it was ONLY based on the fact that I am about to turn 30 in January and I want to get this done while I have the energy and enthusiasm for it. Not to mention here is also the fact that I already have an 11 year old and a 8 year old and it will be starting completely over! (which is actually pretty exciting for me really)

Oh...the dread of telling this to Dave, and I didn't really intend to bring the baby talk into the initial discussion but it went there over dinner and I ended up telling some of it to him via text message because I didn't want to boys to hear me say the B-word. Initial talks were mainly shock on his part that I may have moved his timeline of events up months or hey even years with this revelation, and fear that it would scare him off, but I feel that by being forthcoming if it's not something he already wants...well he'd be gone already. I also gave him the option to run as we discussed it again the next day. He informed me that he isn't scared, that I was and that it's a lifelong commitment to each other married or not. (I have no intention of NOT being married when we do this, I don't care if I have to drag his butt to the JP!) He said "no trading me in, even for a 2013 model Dave with leather seats!"

Then he had several freak out moments because he realized that his offspring wouldn't be so bad, but that he's totally not sure how to handle a daughter which was hilarious! He rambled about not knowing about little girl stuff, like "what would I do for birthday's or Christmas?" then he decided she'd just have to be a tomboy and left it at that! Heehee! He's fine with having the baby! Which at this point is the easiest part.

Complications to the Babe-tastic plan...my house is TINY...so we have to move and like NOW! (Which can be a whole other blog in itself.) He wants to sell I want to keep my house and rent it out...what do we do? Put it in both our names or hone in that first time home-buyers option...the sky is the limit I guess, but we need to move on this quickly, because as much as I was feeling a time crunch I just created the ultimate problem for myself. Ahhhh...I will give it one more day I suppose and revisit it again tomorrow.

Dynomite Dave

OK, So I have been pretty darn sick. Started feeling bad on Friday evening and by Saturday afternoon, I KNEW it wasn't gonna be good. Friday night I woke up every hour with horrible chills and body aches and Saturday wasn't any different, David woke up at about 4 or so and he just couldn't stand it anymore, I was too hot, said I was like a little furnace. When I woke up he had a grocery back full of stuff to help me. I asked him what time it was and he said "you don't wanna know". lol That means it was 4:30 am. I later learned that he got on the internet and learned more about fevers before he went to the store. Apparently I was talking to myself a lot that night, who knows what I said...lol Anyway he couldn't find the thermometer so he had gotten one of those too and we took my temp. in my poor cracked lips and I remember thinking that he was so pretty.

After the thing finally beeped it read 103.4 which explains my weirdness. Later that morning he called my momma and asked her what else he could do for me. I don't know what's cuter, that he was worried or that he was a proactive nurse. Then I heard him cleaning the house and I remember thinking:  "good, at least if this kills me the house will be clean." So Sunday night I fitfully wake every 30 min, but that morning I wake finally to hear him getting the wee ones dressed for school, which he is usually gone for. It just made my heart melt all over. He was working so hard and called checking on me. That's what the whole "in sickness and in health" part is all about in marriage and this is definitely the sickest I have ever been since we have gotten together. Definitely a good feeling. I DID go to the doctor and got all the meds they want me to take, and hopefully am on the mend. We had a huge storm yesterday with mentos hail and plenty of rain! It rained into the night and it was such a great peaceful time to actually GET some rest. I woke thanking the Lord for the beautiful rain, rest and made some special requests for people I love. I made it through most of the day pretty well but felt myself crashing more and more, and here I am with the goal of staying up and having a good nights rest. I wrote this so even though thanks are never enough and often aren't needed when you care for someone you love, it's still there, it burrowed a sweet memory in my heart.

Letter from a Mother to a Daughter:

Someone I know posted this on Facebook and it reminds me of the selfless service of both my Grandmother's to our loved ones. I Love you Momma Kay and Ma Ma! (and you too Mom!)
 

Letter from a Mother to a Daughter: "My dear girl, the day you see I’m getting ...old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through. If when we talk, I repeat the same thing a thousand times, don’t interrupt to say: “You said the same thing a minute ago”... Just listen, please. Try to remember the times when you were little and I would read the same story night after night until you would fall asleep. When I don’t want to take a bath, don’t be mad and don’t embarrass me. Remember when I had to run after you making excuses and trying to get you to take a shower when you were just a girl? When you see how ignorant I am when it comes to new technology, give me the time to learn and don’t look at me that way... remember, honey, I patiently taught you how to do many things like eating appropriately, getting dressed, combing your hair and dealing with life’s issues every day... the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through. If I occasionaly lose track of what we’re talking about, give me the time to remember, and if I can’t, don’t be nervous, impatient or arrogant. Just know in your heart that the most important thing for me is to be with you. And when my old, tired legs don’t let me move as quickly as before, give me your hand the same way that I offered mine to you when you first walked. When those days come, don’t feel sad... just be with me, and understand me while I get to the end of my life with love. I’ll cherish and thank you for the gift of time and joy we shared. With a big smile and the huge love I’ve always had for you, I just want to say, I love you... my darling daughter. "

Happy Mother's Day!

A practice in self-control

I went to the store the other day to purchase something from a friends Bridal Registry. It was exciting to me as I was thinking about knowing the groom since he was little and playing baseball with my brother, and now he was getting to take this huge step in adulthood. I walk into the popular local establishment and walk to the back room where I know all the Registries are displayed where I encountered an employee. She asks if she can assist me finding the registry and I give her the name. 

She then directs my attention to it, looks at me and says in a nasally voice "Well, all the cheap stuff is already gone." and continues to check out my outfit. I do a mental gasp and actually forced myself to take a deep breath. I take the high road saying "Thank you" and then start looking at the beautiful home furnishings that were displayed. The employee then says; "Well, there's nothing under $30." So at this point I am looking myself over asking myself if I look like someone that can't afford paying over thirty dollars. I take the high road again and try not to let her under my skin, "thank you" I say again and ask for the list of gifts as it wasn't on the table. 

As she goes to retrieve it I look at the items on the table and have the burning urge to buy every last item just to shove it in this girls face! OH if I had the money I would have. It made me think back to the movie Pretty Women, when Vivian goes to the clothing store and comes back saying that they were mean to her, and she goes back and makes them feel stupid. Anyway, I don't have a billion dollars. I purchase something in the exact price point that I was expecting to spend and bought a beautiful lantern to complete a set that I saw others had bought the two smaller lanterns. I always do that when I go to a registry, it's my plan and rounds out what my fellow buyers have already purchased for the couple/or baby shower if that be the case. 

Maybe I should have reported the snarky girl, maybe she was just having a bad day...but I am the only one that can control my reaction to the people around me. So that day it was the High Road.

Early Bird gets the worm.

This Happened the other morning:

Wild morning at my house! When I was in the bathroom fixing my contact, I hear the front door open and shut, then I can't find Gavin...looking everywhere and calling his name out the door...I load up and drive to the school, and yup there he is at 6:55. I get him home and he tells me he wants to be the first kid at school, but he wasn't dressed right and his hair was messy, I try to do his hair and I kid you not, he told me he wanted it to look like....ALFALFA!!! LOL Good luck Broadmoor today...he's a man of action...

It's been a long time...

Whew! Long time no Blogging! I miss writing, and there is SOOOOO much that's been going on! Gee, where do I start? How about I start from Dave and I looking at rings and work my way up to date?

January - Dave and I go to pick up a broken necklace of mine, and we spent the next hour and a half trying on rings together! It was a HUGE step forward, so then I showed him a ring that I REALLY like via a link later that night, he liked it! :o) Made me giddy that we might actually get official!

January - THE NEXT DAY after looking at rings - The family goes to my little cousin Riley's Birthday party, and play in the Rolling Video Games Trailer that was rented for his party. We LOVED how fun, cool, easy and exciting the party was, so we looked them up when we got home. Both Dave and I got cards thinking that it would be a good business idea without telling the other person. We looked into it, and agreed, we could do this! 

February - After some research we decided we were going to go for it. I prayed about it, and prayed "Lord, if this is a good idea, that's great! But if not, please shut this door in our faces REAL quick!" Well, things kept clicking into place, we had a generous offer from David's family to help pitch in for the down payment and boom! We were off to Chattanooga, TN to pick up our trailer!

Off we go and make great time, just my Dave and me! We got our trailer on Feb. 17th and it was a great trip, though coming home was a challenge, we were new to driving that sort of rig, and the wind was ummm very helpful! One of the best highlights of the trip was being able to visit with the Knoef's! We all went to the zoo in Nashville and walked and walked and talked and talked! :o) We also got to sit on the interstate while a tractor trailer fire was cleaned up...for about 3 hours! The night we picked up the trailer we already had our first booking! We were over the moon! 

March - We filed our LLC paperwork, got our insurance and worked out all the nitty gritty details on the business. We used this month to have a "soft" opening and really test out how we wanted to work on things before we could really be an official business. We had 7 bookings for the month of March and had a horrible time with the warranty issue we had with the generator on the trailer. (That's a whole other blog in itself.) We took the trailer to the Teen Center Open House and David talked on the radio and really rocked at it! We continued to book dates for April and we still haven't had to advertize! 

April - We got our LLC paperwork back after over a month of waiting and we are officially & legally business owners! Dynomite Gaming LLC, from Hobbs, NM. We still need to go and get a bank account for the business but being on the phone for about 45 minutes took up all the free time we had to do that, so we have to reschedule. I can't wait to have it all set up for online payments to make the whole system more streamlined. HomeSmart a rent to own store in Hobbs, used the Trailer on the 14th for their grand opening, but there wasn't a huge turnout, but the wind was blowing 50 mph, so WE didn't even want to turn out! :LOL We are STILL cleaning out the red dirt! This weekend we had our first real weekend off since we bought the thing and I used it to throw a party for Dave's 30th Birthday! We hauled the trailer to the house and I invited all his rowdy friends. We had great food and everyone had a great time! He got lots of gag gifts and got LOTS of booze! LOL

That brings us to tonight I got him some Crown XR and ummm yea, I have never spent that much money on alcohol in my life, but it is the BEST tasting stuff I have ever tried. He doesn't even drink all that much so we almost need another party just to get rid of it all! I also got him a couple of Oklahoma State things for the new truck we got...OH! I forgot to mention that, but we are caught up without too many details, but I plan on being better about blogging, I need somewhere for my thoughts to go...but I guess the theme of this catch up was to let everyone know that though Dave and I might not be officially committed but we ARE committed to a future together in our business if not marriage yet and hopefully the business will be a successful one!

recent developments

There's been a lot going on lately...today we had a great baby shower for a friend that is expecting twins. It's fun to see the joy and happiness of the new parents.