sighs of frustration and relief...

This time of year is the absolutely most stressful time of the year for me. I would take the pressures of Christmas Shopping and cooking for the entire clan, over spring any day!

My summer programming starts on June 6th. I have 4 movies under the Stars for the summer, one each month. I had the SCARE of the century this week when at one point I was about to be tasked with having to do the fireworks by myself for the City/County with TWO months notice! On top of it all I have been hiring teen-agers, fighting for raises for my returning staff, spring cleaning my office...I just feel so stinking UNSETTLED.

Which brings me to my personal life. (Which is full of contradictions) Things have been going so well now that Dave has moved in with us. It's been amazing to be a team, to share our lives on a daily basis, to give my children honest to goodness FAMILY for the first time in their lives...

soooo let's randomly flashback: (think wayne's world dodoolallooo)


On April 15th Dave and I celebrated 6 years together, in Vegas, and we fought several times over the trip...it was the classic: "man not asking for directions" type stuff...literally. I have a strange since of direction. I go somewhere and for the most part I can remember every detail about how to get back there. Yea, I ain't the "I told you so" type but there were points that I was stinking about to LOSE it. LOL It was so bad, because he couldn't admit that he was wrong, that I told him I wished I had stayed home. I was very disappointed because we usually do so well together, home or away. We DID win $600 bucks right off the bat and we agreed to use that money to play with, it was a blast...to take pictures, explore, shop AND WIN! :o) I was secretly hoping that Dave would make a move toward commitment during the trip, but alas, it wasn't meant to be.

On May 12th, the Anniversary of my 1st marriage I was reflecting a bit and I know that it was on the forefront of both mine and David's minds...we were sitting on the couch and I facebooked him a little message:


10 years ago today...I made a HUGE mistake and married Clayton "Asshole" Brumley...

I have to say, honestly say, that I am SOOOO glad that it didn't work out! I appreciate you more and more any more every day and even though I bust your chops all the time about marriage. I would much rather be happily unmarried to you than unhappily married to him.

You mean the world to me, and I need YOU to know that. I should do better to show you that every day, but it's there, in the forefront of my mind each and every day even if I am not the best at showing it.

I love you.